Although I can call myself as an actor-slash-performer-slash-dancer, I haven’t been on stage for quite a while. More than two years to be exact.
I was quite bored of it. I was bored of never-ending rehearsals (after my day job from 8-11 pm) every single day. I was bored of no matter how much energy you put into the show, the audience numbers never grow. Most of all, I was bored of my life. I thought I’ve spent too much time for theatre and never had a chance to do something else. I thought theatre was one hella good reason that I couldn’t find a (proper) boyfriend.
Two years later without any performances, I am still single.
After my intention to put theatre aside, I spent a lot of time partying. Party, party & partaay. Sure, it’s fun and great. I get to meet lot of new friends. But every time I saw my friends still living their dreams in theatre and kept doing better and better, I got jealous. When I saw them perform, I always imagine what if I am in that play…What would I do? How would I dance? That scene might be better if it had my idea adding into it…etc.
So in fact, I’ve never put theatre aside after all. It’s always with me. It’s one of my passion for more than 12 years. And It always will be.
I should get back to do it soon, really, before I get too old.
Desire can live forever but your body can’t.