Silent Noise

11 06 2008

As I said before that I was so proud of this performance. I found some pictures from the show which were shot by Lee-San himself.

The process of shooting was easy. He played the videotape (errrr….10 years ago? we had no DVD at that time) and shot directly at the TV screen. At the time of our performance, for some reasons, we forgot to do a photo call! What a shame. But For me personally, I prefer this way because they look raw and have an ‘indie’ feeling. The first photo was directly from my scene. The second one was from P’Jay’s scene. And the last one, one of my favorite scences of the show, was P’Bow.

And the next photo is my selling shot. I do look like a tiger or….a dog. And it’s not from the makeup like it seems. I think it was from the lighting and the camera angle.

Well, I prefer look like a tiger than a dog, actually. Grrrrrrrrr….





Yearning To Get Back

9 06 2008

Although I can call myself as an actor-slash-performer-slash-dancer, I haven’t been on stage for quite a while. More than two years to be exact.

The reasons?

I was quite bored of it. I was bored of never-ending rehearsals (after my day job from 8-11 pm) every single day. I was bored of no matter how much energy you put into the show, the audience numbers never grow. Most of all, I was bored of my life. I thought I’ve spent too much time for theatre and never had a chance to do something else. I thought theatre was one hella good reason that I couldn’t find a (proper) boyfriend.

Two years later without any performances, I am still single.

After my intention to put theatre aside, I spent a lot of time partying. Party, party & partaay. Sure, it’s fun and great. I get to meet lot of new friends. But every time I saw my friends still living their dreams in theatre and kept doing better and better, I got jealous. When I saw them perform, I always imagine what if I am in that play…What would I do? How would I dance? That scene might be better if it had my idea adding into it…etc.

So in fact, I’ve never put theatre aside after all. It’s always with me. It’s one of my passion for more than 12 years. And It always will be.

I should get back to do it soon, really, before I get too old.

Desire can live forever but your body can’t.





Nightmare Fever

8 06 2008

Due to the new addiction to my new blog I just created, I’ve been searching for stuff to put on here. I decided to make this blog a collective of my memorable moments, people, places & things. Just in case I turn 60 and can’t remember shit, hopefully I’ll remember this blog and might bring me back home.

Anyway, through my searching, I found this.

“Silent Noise”, a collaboration between Dance Rhizome (Japan) and members of the International Wow Company @ Kad Theatre, Chiang Mai. 1999

This performance really stucks in my memory. It’s a scene from the Butoh performance called ‘Silent Noise’, created by Dance Rhizome’s Ryoiji Oka (Lee) – a well-known Butoh master. It was a collaborative dance piece which each performers would transform their weirdest, scariest nightmares into a dance scene. During the rehearsal stage, it was my first time to encounter such a extraordinary workshop. One of his method was a body contact. You had to lie on other performer’s body and feel each other breath. Trust me, it was very, very uncomfortable but I had a great time and actually really want to work with this group more.

The performance surprisingly turned out to be so great. At first, I had no idea how it would turn out because it was my first time experiencing Butoh dance and we had such a short time rehearsing. But after the show, many people gave us a great comment. Even my acting teacher – Ajarn Jiraporn, said it was one of her greatest experiences in theatre.

Yes, I’m so proud of it.